A 'piece' of mind

The Call

2010-11-09T15:41:00.001+08:00

When you drive alone for a journey of more than 30 minutes, what do you enjoy the most? For me, it depends on my mood. If it’s a morning drive to office, I’ll tend to listen to my type of music and sing my heart out. It’s good though, because normally I would get stuck in the traffic and singing loudly would make me swing over my mood from traffic stress. I’ll tend to do deep thinking usually while driving home from office. It will relate from whatever song that I listen to. The topic could be anything, anybody and most of the time, I really felt deep and so immersed into that thinking that I could cry badly. Cikpah said I once cried like a pig. Damn! At times, I can’t find the answer for my thinking. For that case, I’ll tend to become spaced out and will also affect my mood when at home.

Last night, I was listening to Backstreet Boys – The Call. I understand the hidden meaning of that song now that I’m not that naïve. I remember last time during Uni days, I was cheated by the video clip and that I’ve never listen to the song carefully. I thought the guy was on some secret mission. Naïve! It is not! The song is actually tells us about infidelity and lies made in a relationship! And that guy is actually started to feel that the deceitful things that he did is actually eating him from inside. If you haven’t listened to that song yet, here is the lyric:

Let me tell you the story about the call that changed my destiny

Me and my boys went out, just to end up in misery

Was about to go home when there she was standing in front of me

I said hi! I got a little place nearby, wanna go?

I should've said no

Someone's waiting for me

But I called my girl up and said

[chorus:]

Listen baby I'm sorry

Just wanna tell you don't worry

I will be late, don't stay up and wait for me

I say again, you're dropping out, my battery is low

Just so you know, we're going to a place nearby

Gotta go!

Now two years gone, nothing's been won

I can't take it back, what's done is done

One of her friends found out that she wasn't my only one

And it eats me from inside that she's not by my side

Just because I made that call and lied

[chorus:]

Listen baby I'm sorry

Just wanna tell you don't worry

I will be late, don't stay up and wait for me

I say again, you're dropping out, my battery is low

Just so you know, we're going to a place nearby

Gotta go!

Listen baby, I'm sorry

Oh...

Let me tell you the story ‘bout the call that changed my destiny

Me and my boys went out just to end up in misery

Was about to go home when there she was standing in front of me

I said hi, I got a little place nearby, gotta go...

[chorus:]

Listen baby I'm sorry

Just wanna tell you don't worry

I will be late, don't stay up and wait for me

I say again, you're dropping out, my battery is low

Just so you know, we're going to a place nearby

Gotta go!

Macaroni Bakar

2010-09-26T20:32:00.005+08:00

1 cawan macaroni - rebus dan tapis airnya
1/2 tube daging cincang
3 sudu besar serbuk kari daging
3/4 tin susu cair
2 cawan air
4 biji telur - pukul kembang
1 cube bilis
sedikit tepung gandum
minyak masak
daun sup
bawang putih
bawang merah
garam
butter

Tumis bawang putih dan bawang merah, masukkan serbuk kari. Tumis sampai sedikit garing. Masukkan cube bilis, garam. Masukkan daging.

Campur dengan macaroni yang dah siap direbus dan ditapis airnya tadi. Masukkan susu cair, telur dah dipukul, air dan daup sup.

Kacau rata.

Campur tepung gandum untuk pekatkan adunan dan juga bertindak sebagai filler.

Panaskan tin pembakar dan cairkan butter (untuk elak melekat pada tin pembakar). Tuang adunan. Pastikan paras macaroni separas dengan cairan (susu+air+telur+etc). Jika macaroni tidak berapa tenggelam, boleh tambahkan air sedikit. Ini untuk pastikan bila sudah dibakar nanti, macaroni yg paling atas tidak keras kejung. :) Bakar selama 40 minit pada api 160 deg C.

Bila dah masak, tunggu sejuk supaya dapat potong dengan cantik. Hiaskan dengan cili potong dan daun sup, bawang goreng. Makan dengan sos cili.

Close up!

Salam Aidilfitri

2010-09-10T20:08:00.003+08:00

To all,

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri
Maaf Zahir Batin

Begedil

2010-08-30T21:46:00.006+08:00

Bahan2:
15 biji kentang
1/2 tube daging cincang Ramly
2 genggam udang kering
1 ulas bawang besar
5 ulas bawang putih
1 biji telur
garam, lada hitam, lada putih ikut rasa masing2
daun sup

Mula2 kupas kentang. Potong nipis.

Goreng kentang sampai nampak kekuningan. Jangan sampai garing.

Kisarkan udang kering dengan sikit air (setengah cawan). Tapis udang, air kisaran udang tu simpan.
Panaskan kuali lain. Tumis bawang putih, bawang besar. Naik bau, masukkan udang kering yang dah dikisar. Bila dah agak garing, baru masukkan daging cincang dan air kisar udang tadi. Udang kering perlu garing baru aroma udang tu naik utk tambah rasa apa2 masakan pun. Tambah garam, lada putih, lada hitam.

Sambil tu, potong daun sup halus2.

Kentang yg dah digoreng tadi dilenyek sampai hancur.

Ni la rupa daging goreng yang dah siap. Pastikan air kisaran udang tadi betul2 kering.

Okay lepas tu, campur semua bahan dan uli/gaul rata.

Bulat2kan sebesar biskut Oreo. Suka hati la kalau nak besar lagi pn.
Pukul telur. Celupkan dalam telur dan goreng dalam myk. Tada.... dah siap. Tapi gamba dah siap tak ambik pulak..

Hello there...

2010-08-29T21:25:00.001+08:00

For more than 3 months, i didn't bother to post anything to this blog. Nothing to write, nobody to impress, no event to be told, no mood to tell stories. I have a lot to tell. But i have no time. The blog doesn't give me anymore vibes.

I think it's still not too late for me to wish you Salam Ramadhan. See you around again whenever i feels the vibes coming back. Dhaa~~

You will be missed but not forgotten

2010-05-18T14:16:00.005+08:00

I’ve been so occupied lately that whenever I tried to write something, my ideas went down the drain. When writing email or reports or anything else which is work related, I had these ideas streaming to my head that always I have to jot it down for future writings. I haven’t started reading 3 of my books that I bought last year. I have Glee season 1 to watch. I have Gossip Girl season 3 waiting. I stopped playing FB games except Farmville. I have a new house to be prepared for rent out. I haven’t finished looking up for nice lamp. Haven’t fix the grille. The curtain. My never ending list of work in the office. The over-pressure situation at work as I am now reporting direct to my ex-boss’s boss. Okay… why am I telling you all these…?

I am actually in a stressful mode lately. My ex-boss is now transferred to other site in Manila since April. The ex-boss’s boss (lets denote him as Mr K) doesn’t seem to understand operation. Can I say at all..? To make it worst, he is not an engineer. He has engineering background, that’s what I heard but he never practice engineering. Too bad, most of my issue he doesn’t seems to understand. Not only he doesn’t know operation engineering, he doesn’t know project engineering too. He has this attitude of pushing you when u made a mistake. He rather asking you why thing is not done correctly than asking you how to move forward. He disturbs all level of executive rather than talk to the department head only.

Mr K has a pet. This pet is working in same office as mine. And this pet is famously known as “cakap pandai kerja tak tau”. But being a boss, they love this kind of pet. Can we say dog? A few situation happen that this dog bite me. Office politics is over rated. We call this as office drama. I have not been treated that good by Mr K since my boss left. Not because all these while I’ve been protected, but because he has his own dog and he must take care my ex-boss dog too. Yea.. my ex-boss had a dog too. Which is of course not me. I’m nobody’s dog. I’m stubborn and rebel.

I know I used to write something about my ex-boss. That I don’t really like him. His game. Between me and his dog. But I know, reporting to him is way better than reporting to Mr K who knows nothing. At times, I missed my ex-boss especially when I’m stuck. He listens but yet in the same time he challenge. That's the good thing about him.

Taken on his last day as my boss

I heard they are recruiting new Engineering Manager. Hope to get a boss that listen and coach.

Today's Outfit

2010-04-17T23:42:00.004+08:00

Today's Outfit

2010-01-22T19:37:00.001+08:00

None

2010-01-20T18:50:00.003+08:00

I should have posted this entry earlier before actually. I just realized that this was still in my draft box. So the story become quite outdated. Tapi.. utk tidak mensia-siakan tulisanku, harus ku postkan juga. Hehe..

My parents have arrived safely from Makkah. I managed to snap their face right at the Arrival gate of KLIA. Sacred. White. Pristine. Immaculate. Dunno how to describe. They just pure. Most importantly, they were happy, healthy.

That red/black stripey shirt was my nephew who cried so badly together2 with me when we waved good bye to my parents previously. See his cheek now, so happy. He is like my mom's youngest son. So close to each other.

My father did survived there as cancer survivor. He got minor flu but mom was quarantined in Makkah. Maybe my father survived because he got his cancer meds to kill other sick simptom. They said it was hot that drinking cold water or ice could cut your throat. Although my father survived, he got something else on his feet.

Dear readers,
Please pray for my father. He got cataract resulting from taking cancer meds, and he cant see clearly now. I have to send/fetch him everywhere now as mom cannot drive. He suppose to go for operation tomorrow but it has been postponed to new date since the cancer meds regime has not finished yet. Please let my father survive for operation and long live with good health, for ibadah, for my mom, for me, for family. Thanks.

Curvy or long lashes? How about both?

2010-01-19T19:46:00.000+08:00

I was browsing thru my pictures in my camera and remembered that I went to Isetan KLCC to meet my friend last December. We were approached by few promoter. They promote the product named TSUYA TSUYA. I didnt know they have make up. All this while I thot they only have nail buffer. Hahhaha.. Because my friend was so afraid to allow other person but herself to touch her eyes, so I agreed to give a try. The whole night, i felt like a camel...! It was like wearing fake eyelashes.

Letting somebody to put on the mascara for you was sooooo syiok. The result was so good. It doesn't stick together. No smudge, no crumple. Thick and long. But because they have like 3 bottles altogether for 1 set of mascara (fibre-as thickener, black mascara and white thingy as strengthener) I think it is not time-frienly. So product rating: 8/10.

New Year New Goal

2010-01-08T17:30:00.002+08:00

I told my friend. This year, I want to have balanced life. Out of 5 working day, 1 day I must exercise after work, 1 day I must go home early, 1 day I must work till late, 1 day I must go spend time with friends and 1 day I must go to any shopping mall for shopping or movie or just plain window shopping. Up to yesterday, I managed to comply with 4. Im left with my shopping mall treat for today. Do these sounds balanced? Or too much of relax n cozy?

If life give u lemon, throw it away. Lemonade is overrated..!

2009-12-25T21:44:00.005+08:00

It is almost new year now. I seldom write anything for new year resolution, wishes, target or any variation of that. But this time around, I want to.

Break up has been the hardest thing that happened to me early this year. I cried whenever I was alone. Then things that reminded me of him started to break/lose one by one. It’s a sign that I should pick up and move on.

Recently, few things happen that ticked me, pestering me to do something. I've listen to Paramore - Brick by Boring Brick and started to realized, I was dreaming all this while.

Last three weeks, I accompanied my friend for her blind date with a guy of 3 years younger than her whom we thought was a boring guy but he turned out to be a very good companion. All this while, I thought age does matter when it comes to relationship. Knowing this guy and my ex whom older than me, I know I was totally wrong. Age is just a number. Older guy can also act stupidly when they can’t accept your past mistakes, but instead keep on reminding you about mistakes that you have done.

Third situation was the book. A good friend of mine keeps on asking me to read He's Just Not That Into You and knows once I almost finished with the book, she lent me It’s Called A Breakup Because Its Broken. Those made me stronger and believe, being single is better than to live with a guy that not really into you.

I’m happy now that I found a good bunch of friends whom always on on everything. Whenever I ask them for a lunch in KLCC although that would gonna take us minimum of 2 hours during lunch time, they never turn me down. At least one of them. Answering our boss is different story. Not only that, a movie after work, or a drink over the nearby mamak or shopping after 20th of every month. So slowly I started to learn that I can’t lose any one of them. Despite whatever people said about them, I don’t really care. I am not befriend with their behavior but their companionship. Whatever they do wrong behind me, that’s not the issue as long as they are good to me.

But things are not always nice, and toast will always fall on buttered side. One of my new found bunch of friend is leaving to a new place to pursue her career and that really affect me a lot since we started to become so close with each other.

I hope that I can follow her step. Ever since I met that 2-year-younger-than-my-friend guy, I've started to think that this is the time to pursue my dream that I had since I was still in school. Being an expat and half Malay but non Malaysian and travel around the world, whatever he said does make sense. Pharmaceutical is not my passion but oil and gas is. That’s the reason I took Chemical Engineering. I know its the hardest and yet you get highest pay in oil and gas if you graduated with Chemical Engineering degree. There must be a reason for something right?

I am seeing 2010 as a year full of hopes and I shall waste no time. Wish me luck. Happy new year people...!

Grumpy I was

2009-12-22T11:55:00.000+08:00

My phone doesnt ring anymore. Neither sms nor call. Im still using Minutes Plan from celcom and pay RM150 per month eventhough my usage is less than that. I cant change to other Minutes Plan coz they have come out with new Executive Plan which doesnt suite me at all.

The only time when my phone rings now is when my mum call if by 9 pm, I havent reach home. Or when that stupid system in office send me alarms. Like 32 messages within 10minutes. Sigh...

What I do best?

2009-12-18T18:55:00.004+08:00

Lawa sgt kete ni.. when I got stucked in a jam, this is what I do best. Okay but the last picture taken on red traffic light. But I love that house.

My new Loot

2009-12-18T15:06:00.003+08:00

I love strawberrynet

2009-11-24T11:51:00.010+08:00

You know, ever since i know that site, I've always make it like a habbit to browse it at least once a week. And gleefully, I would buy something eventhough I dont really need the things offered. Now I have almost an A4 size box of makeup stock, untouch yet. Not good, not good. But I cant resist. Its too cheap and too cute.

The thrill of receiving parcel. In box, tied up with purple ribbon...

Excited, eventhough I knew thats my purchase. Not present.

Nicely wrapped. Individually...

Okay out of battery... the excitement continued at home...

See inside? Nicely stuffed with PINK paper.

Okay this is the first set. The best set since they combine all the nice color here. Original price, around RM 205 but i got it for 63!!! What an "investment"...! Since Stila has taken back all their counters to State, I consider this as an investment.

That includes illuminating tinted moisturiser shade 01, convertible lip n cheek color in peony, lip glaze ULTAmate pink (does not sold separately, only with this set), major lash mascara black, eyeshadows in mystic, golightly, wheat and best ever kitten.

The second set - My Mother My Hero. But this is for meee....

Not so charming paper wrapper...

But the very nice make up bag. I can use this as evening bag though...

Coz the label is inside...

Okay whats inside? All the bronzee and adult color. Im thinking of Lily Bass from Gossip Girl.

The 3rd set. Smudge pot in black, grey and brown.

Im loving it to bit....!

I have fallen in love

2009-11-24T11:41:00.005+08:00

Catchy title huh..? No... im still in love with YOU. But I bought this last nite, my new love... It was on sale. Another pair to add to my Audrey Hepburn collection.. :)

Today's Outfit

2009-11-16T18:55:00.000+08:00

Homemade Olio

2009-11-08T02:02:00.005+08:00

Ingredients:

Red, green chillies and chilli padi (pounded) - more chillies is nice, smoked sliced beef, carrot (cut as per picture), tomatoes (diced), garlic (chopped), celery or coriander(chopped), lettuce (chopped, but in my case, i only have chinese cabbage), MasterFoods oregano and thyme herbs, olive oil, salt and of course spaghetti.

Bring the pan to high heat, pour little olive oil and dash in chopped garlic. Wait till u smell the garlic aroma. Set the heat to medium.

Put in the sliced beef. Cook till u smell beefy (beefy..?). Sprinkle pinch of salt, oregano and thyme. Dont forget to throw in the pounded chillies.

Add in spaghetti, carrot, tomato, cabbage and celery (if u use lettuce, add in both just a few minutes before remove pan from heat). Cook well. Now its ready to be eaten.

Preparation time: 30 minutes

Been given 9/10 for this... :)

Today's Outfit

2009-11-03T18:55:00.002+08:00

Eh abaikan tong sampah yg jadi penghias gamba tu ek.. ni muke penyet sbb balik keje dah malam..

Kalau dah nak jadi...

2009-10-29T11:41:00.003+08:00

Semalam aku balik lambat, jadi tak dapat park kereta dekat lorong sebelah rumah tempat biasa. Aku park kereta depan rumah, depan jalan besar, bawah tiang lampu. Pagi ni masa nak pergi keje, tgk kereta mcm lain jer.. sbb dkt tayar ada batu bata. Pusing lagi sebalah, 2 tayar kene rembat. Rupanya, rumah dkt jalan hujung pn tayar Perdana dia kene rembat 4 biji. Rumah jalan belakang, Proton Saga pn kene rembat 3 biji. Kenapa semua Proton je?

Tayar sebelah sini nampak tak luak je. Tapi memang pencuri tu ada niat nak curi 4 terus sbb dah siap letak batu dkt tayar depan tu..

Pergi balai tumpang kereta pakcik sebelah. Sebab aku sebatang kara waktu tu (mood sedih), jadi kene la mintak tolong org sebelah. Nasib baik pakcik sebelah ni bekas OCPD. Jadi masa report dekat balai tu jadi smooth n cepat. Ramai jugak la pakcik2 jiran2 keliling ni tolong tadi. Org2 dkt sini stok yg dah pencen duduk rumah so ade je siang2 macam ni. Ramai2 tadi bagi tips macam2. Parking kereta pusingkan tayar la, pegi pasang shock sensor la, pegi pasang lock nut dekat tayar la. Ade siap suruh parking dekat surau sebab surau tu guarded. Jenuh la pulak nak menapak balik rumah kalau parking dkt surau. Hmmm....

Masa dapat musibah ni tadi, aku call boss bgtau tak dpt attend EHS Forum so mintak dia ganti utk presentation aku. Aku bgtau my tyre got stolen. Baru kejap aku dapat call dari secretary dia tanye aku cuti ke? Nape tak datang? Bos kate taya ko pancit. Hishh.. bengap betul bos aku ni. Kalau alasan tayar pancit tu mcm alasan org2 malas pegi keje je kot. Tayar aku kene rembat la... Geram!

Heran ye, kalau dapat rezeki lebih sikit, ade aje la nak kene hilang kat memana duit tu. Bulan lepas hilang kat kereta jugak. Tapi kene bersyukur la ada jugak dapat rezeki lebih walaupun habis dekat benda2 merepek. Kalau tak dapat, lepas tu dapat musibah, defisit terus. Nasib baik jugak tak rembat 4 tayar.

I miss you

2009-10-20T19:26:00.011+08:00

These last 2 weeks were very emotional for me for I had to face few situations.

Week earlier, I was playing Avril's Under My Skin album back to back while driving. Driving alone always give me chance to deal with my emotions. And always, Avril's My Happy Ending and Nobody's Home would lead me to tears. Imagine, I cried and with my jarring voice, sang to My Happy Ending the same time, just to counter my sadness.

Last week, I had a Quality Council meeting where the QA people highlight concerning issues to the top management and unfortunately, I got 3 and required to present to them what sort of actions taken so far. I presented it well but something happen during the meeting that my boss got embarassed when one of the managers warned him to shut up and let me speak. Second situation was when I answered the Director question while my boss was beating around the bush. Straight away after the meeting ended, we had a discussion which we already set up earlier on my Engineer's appraisal. But he changed the topic and asked my Engineer to leave his room for he wanted to discuss the earlier issue during Quality Council. Did he fell insulted?

We argued. As we always do. For I like to challenge him and he likes me for that attitude. But this time I failed and stupidly, my tears dropped. Shit. In front of him! Coz this thing was very intense for me. I cried not because im weak but because I was trying to control my anger for not to become rude to my boss. And all he did was pestering me with the thought that I already know that the 3 issues were serious. Well, it is still serious. But he didnt give the solution which a boss supposed to, till I asked him "What else do you want me to do?". He cant answer and we kept silence for about 15 seconds and moment later, I left the room as I didnt want many more tears drop in front of him.

I know I'll be facing a lot more issues tomorrow since I didnt go to work for almost 7 days now.

I was on leave last Monday just to help out my parents clearing up their last minute errands. I officially selected myself as their runner since Im the eldest not-yet-married among the family. Packed their luggage, ensure all dad's medicine tucked nicely inside his luggage (which is a lot, imagine cancer patient going abroad for 45 days) and handy bag for immediate consume, polished mom's loafers, run to Tesco for some toiletries, Mydin for mom's sarung lengan etc.

They left us the next Tuesday morning for Hajj. It was very emotional moment for us all eventho this is their second time performing Hajj, but this time, the condition is different. It was quite devastating to admit that you have to let them go. We, the siblings didnt agree at first since dad havent finished his treatment cycle yet.

That Tuesday morning around 1am, our relatives started to leave Kompleks Tabung Haji Kelana Jaya. Around 2.30 am, there were only our family and we departed from mom and dad at 3am. Non of us did not cry and everybody else were looking at us like wacthing some drama episode. I never stop crying till I reach home.

I dont want to have gloomy 45 days and I am now trying these:
Who knows what could happen
Do what you do
Just keep on laughing
One thing’s true
There’s always a brand new day
I’m gonna live today like it’s my last day

Today's Outfit

2009-10-07T09:27:00.003+08:00

p/s: Azida, recognise of something familiar?

Eidul Fitri

2009-09-20T12:46:00.003+08:00

Yours truly wishing you:

Salam Aidilfitri

Maaf Zahir Batin

Dari Mata Turun Ke Hati?

2009-09-18T11:54:00.008+08:00

Disebabkan kening aku yg sedari kecik senget sebelah, aku cari alasan utk cantas kening. Tp kalau nak trim kening, lepas tgk dkt cermin, aku mesti kene ambik gamba pulak lepas tu sbb kadang2 dlm cermin nampak ok dah. Dalam gamba tinggi sebelah or besar sebelah.

Ok bukti2 kening senget. Sebelah melengkung sebelah lagi menyabit and straight:

Ini kening dalam proses mencantas lepas balik keje dgn minyak2 muka:

Ini lepas keluar dr bilik air dengan minyak yg dah berkurang:

Al Fatihah to Siyoh

2009-09-12T20:04:00.005+08:00

Remember Siyoh @ Asiah? I've blogged about her last time. She passed away last Thursday, night time (im not sure what time). Those kind of people, Allah loves them more. She died in the month of Ramadan, the last 10 days of Ramadan, on the best night of all (Friday night). So sacred.

Bread Pudding

2009-09-07T22:48:00.004+08:00

I made this today for moreh tonight at the Surau.

4 eggs, 6 tablespoon sugar, blend together till fluffy. Put it one side - Part A.

1/2 cup of evaporated milk + 2.5 cup water (if using tea cup instead of baking cup take 1 cup milk and 2 cup water), pour together and heat it up (just heat, no need to bring to boil). 12 slices of Gardenia bread if using baking cup or 10 slices if using tea cup, sliced to smaller pieces and put inside the water+milk mixture. If using normal bread which is not too dense, e.g. Roti Cap Kunci, use more bread and reduce the sugar to 5 tbs spoon. Sprinkle 15-20 black raisins and cinnamon powder.

Pour in the Part A.

Heat up the baking tin and add 2 spoon of margerine till it sizzles. Pour in the mixture of milk+bread+water+raisin+cinnamon. Bake for 35-45 minutes at 180oC.

Serve hot with vanilla ice cream.

Coughing and flu and Ramadan

2009-09-07T09:07:00.001+08:00

Its been a while since I last blog. I was on few days sick leave and a day of emergency leave coz I was so unwell to see the Doctor for medical leave. I was having flu initially, with thick green slime. Then it lead to cough. Then I had a very bad cough. Went for rapid test and luckily it was negative.

I was coughing badly till I lost my voice. It was very difficult to recover as I was fasting and didnt skip any. Cant even speak or else I would start to cough rapidly. It was an embarassing moment when I was coughing during prayers and somebody from the other side of the curtain said, "ehmmm ehemm.. tu mesti Sue!"

I had to skip the jamaah terawikh with my mum coz it was very disturbing to pray together as I need time to clear my throat and spit my mucus out every 2 raka'at. So Mak went to Surau with Abah for jamaah. I feel so thankful when I got my voice back after suffering for almost more than a week but later that day I realized, I cant pray as the red thingy had come. Sigh...

Mix and Match

2009-08-25T06:15:00.003+08:00

I like trying my clothing and play with them. Since myself and 2 other sisters of mine are almost having the same size, we loves to exchange our dress, blouse, top and anything. Usually, I will snap a photo of mine if I think I like my outfit of the day so that I remember how to dress up that way in future. I love colors.

So the other day, me and my sis went crazy and snapped our own picture of wearing our dresses. So guys, tell me which one is good or which one shouldn't be wearing at all or maybe the colors or accessories doesnt match at all. Dont guess who's the model tho...

2009-08-21T18:46:00.003+08:00

Tell me what color of plain tube u want me to wear... I have full range of color besides the basic, black, white and cream. Not in photo, red, dark purple. But i still think i dont have certain color. Help...

Concern?

2009-08-20T18:34:00.004+08:00

I was away last week. Monday on medical leave. Tuesday and Wed for training and Thursday Friday for business trip. When I returned back to office, I didnt see my boss straight away on Monday since I wanted to settle and clear my desk. My In Tray was already full by then. Later that day, he sent an email to me which I only read it on Tuesday morning. It reads as below:

SKC/CH
17-Aug-2009 12:13
To
SD/KUA/CH/SB_PLC@GSK
Subject
concern

SD,

For last few weeks, I am getting bit concerned on the Utilities and Facilities - in terms of safety compliance and the sense of urgency to solve the issue. It was never seen earlier in last few years.

I think we have gone bit complacent in near past and have to step back and really focus on the details as things will go out of control if not pulled in right direction.

I hope you will pass this message to your team and with more of yours and Asmidi's Kaizen - things will be back to track as in good old days.

So
a) more of meeting with your team
b) Kaizen of your areas
c) look into bit micro all activities in your areas

these 3 things will bring the stuff back to track

Do not expect from the "Iron lady "

Awaiting your feedback and game plan.

Cheers
SKC

Wonder what makes him feel that way...? Its because we always have discussion, almost everyday in his room. So basically he needs to see my face everyday and see my mail everyday for he used to call me Iron Lady. Sigh, high expectation.

Im homesick..

2009-08-15T18:24:00.002+08:00

Just waved my goodbye to Imah and Im now all alone, killing time at Changi. Thinking of staying at Cikpah's for quarantine but... Im thinking again and I feel Spore is much safer than KL in terms of H1N1. Gtg...

Not So Annoying Akon

2009-08-08T17:48:00.001+08:00

I know I wrote something about annoying Akon and his songs. But I couldnt resist to not ignore his latest song Gonna Be With You. Hehe..

Hello There... The Angel From My Nightmare...

2009-08-06T17:49:00.004+08:00

Do you know the Blink 182's video for I Miss You is having a Bohemian-like lady as the model who's having unshaved armpit? With very long armpit hair. Haha... those days I love to watch this video wondering why on earth they are having a lady with armpit hair for modelling? Last 2 days, I recall and just couldnt find it in Youtube. As usual, Cikpah the moving music library pasted this link to me. She even pasted it on Facebook! Haha..

We used to say hi to each other by singing the intro part "Hello there...". And the other person on the line will reply with "angel from my nitemare..." and so on depending on our mood. Haha... Lurveeeee this song so much.

Enjoy..
http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x2px7o_blink182-i-miss-you_music

Beep to the Beat

2009-08-05T21:38:00.002+08:00

I was driving home from work yesterday at around 8.30pm and to my surprise, Fly.fm was playing System Of A Down - Chop Suey. I was excited to the max till I called Cikpah and asking her to listen to it too. Haha. I thot they wont play such not-radio-friendly song. Very seldom they play songs in that genre. It was only played last night because of the song demand from Night Flight. You know... I was trained to listen to those kind of song by somebody, that I will remember him till death.

Besides Chop Suey, try also these songs maybe u'll like it:
Avenged Sevenfold (A7X)- Sieze The Day, Bat Country, Blinded In Chains

Reader's Digest Contest

2009-08-04T13:17:00.002+08:00

Abah had become the subscriber for Reader's Digest for past few years and already stop subscribing now. The thing is, RD always send him mails after mails on contest with freebies and whatnot. Usually, the mail will go straight to the dustbin. But that day, been alone at home, bored, so I decided to give it a try on behalf of Abah for the contest. Who knows I might get Honda Civic 2.05. Hah...! By the way, I just have to complete few simple forms by sticking the stickers here and there, placed everything inside the provided envelope with "Registered Mail" marked on it. Easy peasy.

Last Friday, we recieved another mail from RD for another contest which says "stand a chance to win bla bla...". It's neverending. And its kinda gambling. I started to realized that it is one of the Jews strategy. So I stopped there.

Today's Outfit

2009-07-31T15:39:00.005+08:00

Excuse my muke sememeh sbb pic taken after work.. dah penat.

Random pic from my camera 2

2009-07-26T22:30:00.005+08:00

Uitm Segamat. My sis in there

Pic taken masa tgh jam dkt area KLCC

Candid masa kat ofis

Taken by my 1.5-year-old niece

Found dead in front of my house. Tak tau terhantuk ape. Ade darah kat kepala dia..

Kasut Vincci in shocking pink - RM27

Sgt bertamadun kan org2 Subang ni...?

Aksi2 lepas lunch. Can u spot how many person inside this pic?

Aku rasa cam gamba ni sgt unik

Colmar Tropicale

Inject Yourself With Liberty

2009-07-23T12:03:00.003+08:00

Aku ada kerja nak kene present esok walaupun masih tak siap dan dlm draft dan ditambah pula dengan laptop yang baru saja boleh on sebab kene hantar IT Department untuk upgrade selama 4 jam. Rugi masa. Tapi aku terpanggil untuk kemukakan satu topik ni. ”Org jujur sgt, rugi”.

One of my staff texted me sebab nak balik awal petang ni at 4.30 pm. Dia nak hantar kawan lamanya ke KLIA. Aku agak linient dan secara bergurau, aku reply dan tanya balik “OK, nak hantar Markonah ke?”. Markonah adalah nama jolokan yang kami panggil utk gf dia. Dan dia text balik. Reply me’reply’ terjadi dan sampai la kepada textnya yang terahkir ”Org jujur sgt, rugi!”.

Rupa-rupanya dia nak hantar exgf dia, tanpa pengetahuan current gf. Bolehkah? Aku selalu rasa tak betul, tak ok, tak baik, tak bagus, bersalah kalau la aku buat perkara macam ni. Jgnkan nak jumpe ex, jumpa exclassmate pn tidak. Dan kadang2, jumpa kawan rapat perempuan pun agak susah. Kenapa ek? Pernah tak terjadi dekat org lain perkara macam ni? Mungkin pernah atau mungkin juga tak.

Sebab kita terlalu rapat dan terlalu bergantung pada partner kita ke? Atau partner kita terlalu mengongkong kita ke? Atau kita ni cun sangat ke sampai dia takut org lain akan tertarik kat kita so kita tak boleh jumpe org lain? Adalah mustahil.

Kalau dah berkahwin, perkara macam tu adalah sedia maklum. Memang tak boleh keluar tanpa izin. Tapi, tak la sampai jumpa kawan lama pn tak boleh kan? Adakah kalau dah kawen tu, hidup adalah totally berdua sahaja. Or bertiga kalau anak satu, berempat kalau anak dua and so on. Tiada masa jumpa kawan2? Sangat sibuk mengurus rumah tangga dan kerja? Macam mana ye nak bahagi masa. Aku taknak hilang kawan2 rapat aku sebab berkahwin. Tapi memang ada yer org macam ni.

Ada kawan2 aku yg terus lost contact lepas kawen. Ini adalah tidak bagus. Tapi memang kebanyakan kawan bersikap begitu. Mereka hanya contact kawan2 yg juga sudah berkahwin. Mungkin cerita mereka selalunya similar. Mungkin cerita org single agak berlainan. Kehidupan masih bebas. Selalunya org berkawen ni cerita berkisar pasal anak la, suami la, masak la. Tapi kalau pasal masak, masih boleh contact kawan yg single kan? Hairan.

Bagi aku sendiri, aku juga agak memilih utk contact kawan2 aku yg sudah berkahwin. Ada sesetengah tu, kalau bercakap dgn dia je, soalan wajib mesti nak tanya bila aku nak kawen. Kawen la cepat nanti dah tua tak larat nak beranak. Nanti kita berumur anak masih kecil bla bla... BOSAN. Macam la aku tak tau kan aku kene kawen. So aku malas nak contact dah. Kalau kawan aku yang rawk, walaupun dah busy, dia masih contact, tak tanya soalan2 bombastic dan ajak jumpa. Mungkin cara ajak jumpa tu lain sbb dia terikat dgn komitmen. Contoh, instead of jumpa kat luar or tempat shopping, dia buat makan2 dekat rumah dan jemput kawan2. Im ok with this yer.

Ok nampak macam aku dah terlari topic. Since boss dah panggil, so I penned off.

Homemade Pizza

2009-07-15T22:11:00.000+08:00

Blend fresh tomatoes. Chopped some onions. Pour some olive oil in non-stick pan. Cook the blended tomatoes with oregano, pinch of salt and pepper and chopped tomatoes

Tada.. the pizza base

For mushroom soup, chopped some white oyster mushroom and cook together with fresh milk. Dash some white pepper and some salt. Put to boil

Tada... mushroom soup

Pizza bread. You can get it from any supermarket

Spread the pizza base on top of pizza bread. Sprinkle sliced crab finger, onion, chopped tomatoes - crabby flavor

Pepperoni? Replace sliced crab with sliced frankfurter, onion and chopped tomatoes

Tuna with crab

Finally, throw a lot of mozarella cheese

Tada... before and after

Random pic from my camera

2009-07-13T21:57:00.001+08:00

Unknown black blue stripey creature

Action!

Whose belly is bigger?

This rock is so cool till I hugged it

I see u in me

Bersatu kita teguh bercerai kita roboh

GrandMum and GrandDad

Tesco in Kota Bharu?

Sate ikan sedappp

Pakcik ni syok sgt nak bayar saman siap posing2

Marble Batik Sarong

2009-07-12T13:15:00.003+08:00

Each piece for RM28 including shipping.

Yellow-Grey

Grey-Blue

Yellow-Green

Yellow-Blue

Pink

Daddy's Med - Revlimid

2009-07-10T21:16:00.000+08:00

Remember I told u about my Dad is on chemotheraphy? His chemo program is by oral. This med is cost RM1571 per capsule and kept at the highest kitchen cabinet. Handle with care.

And these are some others. Colorful. Nice.

Today's Outfit

2009-07-09T23:24:00.003+08:00

I know how to do it, i just dont have the time to do it

2009-07-07T23:12:00.004+08:00

When u have staff reporting to you:

support him if he is right
ask him abt the task given. follow up
get update at least once a week eventhough not much task given to him
most importantly, dont overload him
if you find him quite overload, try to settle simple stuff for him which u are supposed to be expert in
give him some treat sometimes
give him pat on his back or acknowledge through your writings (i.e email) when he did good job
always have one to one session to make sure he is under control of all his job
coach him. walk the talk
never tiaw him infront of his subordinate

Thats what I did and now very dependable on him that im going to face the hectic work life tomorrow as he'll be on long holiday starting tomorrow and I have 3 major breakdown to deal with. Ngam2 everything happen after 6pm today! I need more staff... more time...

Poudoudou Exclusive - Sunway Pyramid

2009-07-06T21:02:00.005+08:00

I went to this small outlet at the Asian Avenue area in Sunway Pyramid. Among all outlet, this is the best. Their collection are all unique and nice. Price considered ok for non branded items they sell. The owner must have good taste in fashion. Their shoes are all nice, dress clothes jacket are nice too. The deco is superb and they have some wierd shop name. Plus, the sales girl is super cute too. We managed to snap few pictures while testing the shoes. Go check this outlet out. Its in 2nd floor, Asian Avenue area. On top of Marrakesh.

The exterior

That shoe Azida is wearing is so nice but no size for us

Azida in action

Which one nicer? Black gladiator or Silver Rawk?

Again, Azida in action

Shocking Pink Pumps

2009-07-01T19:39:00.004+08:00

While writing this, Im wearing my stripey MNG blouse, black ZARA pants, scarf from Avon (Avon ada scaf?), shocking pink bangle from Khazanah and SHOCKING PINK PUMPS from Vincci Accessories. And all I received today were all compliments from colleagues addressing my shoes.

"I like your shoes. Cantik kasut! What color is that? Where did u buy it? Its match with your bangle! You are all pink today. You cantik la. Kasut Adidas ke tu? Cute nye kasut." - All in all.

Today my blog has become a sales blog

2009-06-30T22:24:00.018+08:00

For first time ever, Im trying to sell things at this blog. Got few kain imported from Terengganu (mums origin). If interested, drop me an email at asitoque[et]yahoo[dot]com. Price inclusive of shipping.

1. Batik Long Maxi - Green Size S (RM 55)

Green color

Long sleeve dengan hujung berkaki

Sambung tangan

Yang lain2 sama cutting cuma comes in different color and sizes. This maxi suitable for muslim lady yg bz, boleh jadi 2 in 1 dress. Menutup aurat. Untuk ibu2 or surirumah, sesuai utk duduk dkt dapur sbb kain dia macam kain kaftan, sejuk, lps masak jemur kain dan ambik anak balik sekolah etc. Duduk rumah or klua berjalan pegi kedai pegi pasar pegi Tesco. Tak payah susah2 tuka baju. Size S sesuai utk org yg bersize UK6-UK10. Size M sesuai utk UK12-UK14. So far, stock is unique. Satu size satu color shj.

2. Batik Long Maxi - Red size M

Original tag "Hazwani Batik Terengganu"

3. Batik Long Maxi - Red size S

4. Batik Long Maxi - Magenta size S

5. Batik Long Maxi - Mustard size S

6. Batik Long Maxi - Black size S (different design from no 1)

Note: Shipping included for local order je. Kalau kat Sudan ke luar dari Malaysia ke.. shipping cost might be different.

Micheal Jackson facing 500 billion USD debt as reported by The Wall Street Journal

2009-06-26T22:10:00.000+08:00

Owh em gee. The King of Pop died today and I am overfed with his song today since all radio stations are playing his song. He died as muslim but pity him, the world is airing his songs/video all over rather than recite Yasin or Fatihah. I wonder whether his body will be buried the Islam way or not.

Note: title nak bg gempak je...

Annoying Akon - Sorry Blame it On Me

2009-06-23T09:48:00.004+08:00

While I was driving this morning, that song came out and I felt really annoyed. Whats up with taking the blame, but in the end you said "Even though the blames on you, I'll take that blame from you".

Oh yea.. I have another annoying song which whenever I heard it on radio, I'll quickly tune to some other station. One of it is Akon - Right Now (Na na). Hey can you say it perfectly? Nannanana... annoyingggg.... (aAaaAAaAAaAAaaaaAAA.... jatuh gaung...) Just by thinking of Akon, I cant recall what other songs that annoyed me.

Talking abt annoying things, have you heard the advertisement for campaign "Buy Malaysia Products"? That adverts which they have two person with annoying conversation on furniture. With Chipmunk voice. Wtf? Why Chipmunk? And what about that dialog? Recently, they came out with version 2 of that advert. Arghhh... I just cant take it. Cant you make better advert?

Home made ice blended

2009-06-20T22:49:00.001+08:00

1/2 tbs Nescafe

2 tbs Horlicks Original

2 tbs milk powder (Omega)

4 tbs Hershey's Choc Syrup

Ice cubes

1/4 cup water

Blend together. I dont have whipped cream, so here's the result:

Empty

2009-06-18T23:00:00.001+08:00

I woke up this morning and felt so empty. So sad that I realized I dont have any training to attend today as last 3 days. I've never felt this way before, sad because the course has ended.

I met Azida and tears came out over the dinner. I dunno why I am so in deep sorrow. Somber. Like I've been living in murky water the day before. I need something to cheer me up. The family is planning for something over the weekend. Im waiting.

This shouldn't be the end of everything

2009-06-11T09:12:00.005+08:00

I am delaying my check up which supposed to be due last month. I don’t have the guts yet to go.

I found out yellow and purple/pinkish purple is so match and just realized that coincidently my bedroom color almost having this two color combination.

One of my friends asked me why I wear the ring on my finger, none other than to ‘swoosh’ away guys to get near me. The only reason is, I love that person still.

Mum, Abah, my lil sister and me dine out last week just to have mini celebration of our parent’s 36th anniversary when we bumped into Abah’s friend, Dato’ Raih, Datin Ana and their son, the ex-husband of Natasya Hudson. The Ex looks so young and so boyish.

I just found out that one of my colleagues reads my blog and I don’t feel easy.

My car cannot be started last Tuesday when I was about to reach early to office and I had to drive my sis’s manual car. On the way back that day, I decided to look for alternative road and ended up wasted the gas and 1 hour time coz I was lost in the middle of Cheras housing areas.

I’m getting fed-up of asking my classmate to meet up as most of them are busy and I’m having a pathetic life.

My Mum told me I have big belly. Sigh. I hate to go on diet.

I went to Times Square with my lil sister to pay her my promise and yay! happy coz I got 4 clothes with RM85 only.

Of Handphone, Anger and Stubbornness

2009-05-27T22:20:00.007+08:00

I dont charge my hp very often now. It can reach up to 4 days of usage before recharging is needed. On 4th day, I started to call my friends just for a simple hi. I dont really remember where I put my hp now. It doesnt ring anymore except calls from family members or those stupid sms alarm from office.

Somebody who barely knows me did give some comment that Im "pemarah". Wierd. Am I that pemarah? And stubborn? That bad? One of my friend send me this:

~pemarah tp org tak takut. kuat melawan tp takde la sampai meluat. tp lepas kawin jgn buat~

So few days after that, I was computing the comment from my friend. Will I be able to shed away my stubbornness and anger?

Stripey part 2

2009-05-24T19:14:00.008+08:00

Remember my collection of stripey clothes? OK, presenting part 2, stripey with a shade of red/pink.

Padini Authenthics - bought recently

DKNY sweater - got it in 2008

Tommy Hilfiger - got it on 2008 (my most expensive clothes so far)

Communique shirt - got it in 2007

Seed Workwear - got it in 2006

Seed sweater - got it in 2005

Haha, if you notice, I only buy one of those. Others were present from himself. Sigh sigh again..

Comfy, nice or both?

2009-05-14T18:23:00.008+08:00

I was at KLCC yesterday meeting up with Azida. At first she told me, we go makan, tak larat shopping. Then after makan, i said lets window shopping. We talk and talk and talk and few times ended up said somtin like, "kenapa kite lalu sini?" as a result of too engrosssed with stories. Suddenly we hit the NOSE outlet, and she ended up buying a black patent shiny 3 inch heels. Very nice and looks really sexy on her. I didnt try it out tho but i think its comfy. Cheap, nice, comfy and worth buying, which reminds me of my favourite shoes. Cheap, comfy, nice, 2 inch heels (not too high not too flat), sexy with ankle-buckle, faux front buckle and worth buying. I bought it for RM65 only and still keep it nicely at home eventho both heels had come out, and not possible for me to walk with the shoes on.

If you zoom in the picture above, you'll know how much i love it. Lenyek sampai lebam.

For me, first criteria for shoes is comfy. Then come nice. Then only affordable (read: murah). Plus, I wont go for shoes that cover only half of your front jari kaki, and expose the other half. Burok. Peep toe is different. And to Azida, if u wanna run with heels, go for wedges. Next time kita shopping wedges biru tu okay?

Random-ness

2009-05-07T20:26:00.004+08:00

1. I miss that person. So much. I cried when I saw his hand writing on one of the document passed to me. I cried over happy song played on the radio. I cried when i felt sick or when that red time comes every month, for he used to buy me hot chocolate. I always clear the received call and missed call list in my phone so that I still have his record and that doesnt go overwrite. Till date, I still dunno how to swim. Swimming class will charge me rm300 for 10 classes, 2 hours every class, doesnt matter whether I manage to swim in the end or not, when actually I can get free class, till I can really swim. Dont have to pay for 300 without assurance of being able to let myself drowned. I might have seen Jason Mraz live! Eventho I wrote somtin abt I-hate-JasonMraz previously. If I were to write everything, there wont be enough space here. Sigh Sigh.

2. Abah has started his second regime for chemotheraphy with the new med cost of RM180K. Previous one was RM130K. Not sure how am I going to pay for these meds if I inherit the cancer cell in me. After Abah, in my family, Im the one who always get unusual sicknes.

3. Been hunted by few job agencies quite recently, with good pay, 30% more, stable multi-national company and other good package. But non attract me to leave this "memorable" place. I always remember, good pay comes with great responsibility and a lot of things need to be sacrificed, and Im not ready to loose those memory.

4. I have more and more work to juggle. Then some theory came out within my self that I dont have the capability to juggle eveything. Maybe thats the reason I failed in the love department.

5. No more TV for me except for Prison Break evey Monday 10.30 pm. I know Dexter season 2 is being aired on TV2 now, but by the time it reach 11 pm, I can barely open my eyes.

Sweet Escape

2009-03-12T22:41:00.001+08:00

I have this tendency of buying stripey clothes especially black and white. I dont mind the brand or price as long as I like it.

Esprit - RM99

Zara - RM59

Marks & Spencer - RM183

MNG - RM49 (was on sale)

Bintang Fashion - RM39 (the cheapest)

Al Fatihah

2009-03-11T19:53:00.004+08:00

Al Fatihah for my late Toki. He passed away on last Friday at the age of 78. The last time I met him, he was skinnier than my skinny father. May he rest in peace and blessed by Allah.

From Hero to Zero

2009-02-27T17:08:00.003+08:00

At this very moment of time, aku rasa kecil hati yang teramat sangat dan tak dapat dibendung lagi. Tak pernah rasa sekecil ni. I feel Im DEAD now. *it* S*ray* is DEAD... Rupa-rupanya kalau terlalu rindu, boleh jadi DEAD.

Ribena smoothies

2009-02-26T17:35:00.003+08:00

Wanna try new recipe? Mix 1/4 glass of Ribena with 1 glass of fresh milk. Add 1 glass of water and 1 glass of ice cube. Blend together and you'll get this. Makes 4 glasses altogether.

Kanak-kanak Kecil Yang Macam Professor

2009-02-24T17:28:00.006+08:00

Ini Eisya. Geram sangat tengok dia. Umur 2 tahun 1/2. Licik. Rambut tak pernah sikat. Kerinting bukan sebab semulajadi tapi sebab tak sikat. Kami panggil rambut professor. Tapi bapak dia kata, rambut org sakit. Dia memang selalu sakit. Kalau demam akan muntah tahap terlampau. Sebab dia ada asma. Maka kalau selsema, tak boleh nafas dan berkahak, akan muntah sebab ada konflik dekat hidung. Kalau dia tidur, kene curi-curi2 tampal Breathe Right dekat hidung dia. Kadang-kadang, kita boleh rasa nak menangis tak paham apa dia cakap sebab pelat dia pun tahap melampau. Tapi yang paling kelakar, dia suka makan mee dan setiap jenis mee dan adik beradik mee, dia panggil "maggiweed". Tak tau dia dapat dari mana.

Mr A-Z

2009-02-19T08:51:00.006+08:00

I dont like Jason Mraz anymore eversince the super song Im Yours aired almost everyday in the radio. Ppl started to be his fans and he's being exposed too much. I still remember last time when I was still a newly fresh grad, I love every single song in his first album. And I sometimes used his lyrics or song title as my blog entry title. Absolutely Zero. Waiting For My Rocket to Come. Who Needs Shelter. I even used his song (You and I Both) for my blog background music. His single from the second album also not too bad. Wordplay. Geek in The Pink. Life is Wonderful and few more. Usually, his songs would tell us about life, something for us to ponder. His lyrics never simple and seldom on love story.

I still remember when his first single hit the radio. That time the only English Radio that I would listen to was Hitz.fm. They played "The Remedy" over and over and over. Then came the second single "You and I Both". But not many ppl know him back then. I used to asked few of my friend whether have they heard the song or Jason Mraz before. Most of them tak penah dengar... My self and Cikpah were crazy over the You and I Both that time. I sang along when driving. Stucked my ears with his songs whenever I feel bad.

I got his first and second album. But this 3rd one, I think I dont have to have one. If u ask me whether I wanna go for his concert this March,4... I think no thanks. I am this kind of person, I dont fancy over-glamoured person as I have a very high level of jealousy. Haha.. watch out!

DUKE Highway and Carlsberg

2009-02-15T17:03:00.000+08:00

This is the view from my office window. U see that? Duke Hiway. With Carlsberg's trailer which at first i thot new billboard. And that is my UxDhy!Hx*SNzMS Director's car. Land Rover. Go find it! Click for larger view.

Silver plattered

2009-02-10T19:45:00.015+08:00

Recently, came that 31st Jan again for the 29th time. I was away in Kelantan for my brother's wedding and that caused the delay of the main event. We celebrate it when the "Kelantan event" settled. I'll have another entry on Kelantan event altogether.

Long before the day, I received a handbag. Way out of my own budget. And I still can said somtin like how much saving can be done if we buy a bit later coz the price went down for RM500 to a discounted amount on December 08. Im quite stingy when it comes to spending.

Then came the ruby red crocs. I used to condemn whatever crocs has come out with their design. We went to Mid Valey and later en-routed to Ikano just to grab my size, during lunch hour. How crazy... I also got that super cute jibbitz to customised (one cute little pingu and one butterfly)

On the day itself, I received 2 dozen of roses plus lilies. This is quite expected.

Cute pingu with biggg eyes. I dont know why but we chose pingu as symbolic icon. I have pingu stickers, pingu playdoh-figurine, pingu little trinklets for my bracelet and etc.

2 tix for Sunburst 09, one for me and another one for my company. I heard that the artist lineup this year are not as good as 2008. But lets keep our finger crossed. I also heard that is part of their marketing strategy to let ppl wait and later to confirm the artist when tix selling price is no longer available for early bird, and ppl have to pay for RM200.

Stila makeup set. My second set. Im thinking of selling the one that Im using now. Barely used. For RM50. Actual prize is around RM170. Anyone interested?

Diamond n Platinum earrings. Nuff said. I will get replacement for anything damaged/broken/lost. I realized that I am so much being spoiled. But I like the feeling of being spoiled. :p

First time ever eyebrow shaping experience at 128 Faubourg, Bangsar Village. Im thinking whether to maintain it or not. Half of me says no coz Mak says no, but the other half says yes coz girls like to be pretty. (ooo yeahh... allow me to use that word. I know Im quite old to be called a girl....)

First time ever too, for the super duper tickling fish spa. RM 35 per pax. Location: Sunway Pyramid.

First, take off ur shoes.

Clean it.

Then let the fish EAT u.

Last but not least birthday cards and lunch treat.

Thanks for all...

Lets cook ala La Bodega Style

2009-02-06T22:09:00.002+08:00

Last month, I had this mood to cook dinner almost every night eventho on weekdays. I think that because of the Astro decoder problem. I didnt watch TV for almost 2 weeks. So what else to do than cooking when u left alone at home and ur family forbid u to go out coz u had to look after the house...

So here goes my signature style dinner ala La Bodega English Big Breakfast.

Cauliflower, tomatoes, broccoli, carrot and i-forgot-the-name-beans. Cook with garlic butter in non stick pan with high fire. Tomatoes to be put in just before we take off the fire as it can easily get soggy.

For the sauce.
Blend fresh tomatoes. Heat up the non stick pan and put some (2 tbs) olive oil. Put the blended tomatoes till u hear the pan sizzles that shows u hv the correct temperature. Cook till it turn a bit red, more red than the fresh blended tomatoes. Put some chopped onions, sprinkle some salt, rosemary n oregano.

Scramble egg.
Beat some eggs with fresh milk and some grated cheese. Sauteed in non stick pan. Sprinkle some pepper and salt.

Grilled sausages.
Sliced the sausages into 2. Cook the sausages with Teriyaki sauce in non stick pan. U dont want ur Teriyaki to stick to ur pan and not the sausages. Im using Master Foods.

OK here is the end result. To be eaten together with garlic bread. I made my own garlic butter. Just sprinkle some oregano to ur melted butter and mixed with grated garlic. Tada~~

Ready for that?

2009-02-02T14:18:00.001+08:00

Sejak anak2 sedara aku tinggal sekali, balik-balik kene tgk kartun. Tau tak... my sms tone skarang pakai lagu Wonderpet. Cute. Penat la balik keje kene jaga budak kecik. Tersedar yang aku sebenarnya tak ready utk itu. Aku nak dimanjakan je selalu. Balik keje penat. Nak layan budak kecik merengek, muntah, jatuh tangga, kencing tembus pampers kene tilam, etc... penat la.. Tp by the end of it, penat2 pn best. Bila dia tak buat hal dan jadi cute, aku boleh lepas tension bila main ngan budak2 kecik.

The Best Port

2009-01-21T15:17:00.005+08:00

I got this one secret place in my office that when I have anything that I couldn't bear anymore, I would bring myself to that place for some privacy. It is the Auditorium. Usually, that room will be empty but only on certain days when the room is occupied for some events. The carpet, chairs, wall, projector, TV, stage, speaker would always be my witness for any emotional breakdown that I face. I would cry my lung out, weep my sorrow and drain out my feeble heart till I feel easy with my own self. Till I feel stable and able to walk my body back to my own cubicle to just make some phone calls to have some hope for whatever trouble that I combat before. To heal emotionally would always depends on the phone call that I made.

Nobody knows. Nobody realize. Except for the carpet, chairs, wall, projector, TV, stage, speaker. It always be a good spot as the room has two doors and quite big for others to hear my weeping sound.

And today, I was there again. 15 minutes was enough for me before I took another exit door as I heard somebody was trying to open the other door.

I dig when im bored

2009-01-17T20:23:00.004+08:00

The Saturday night was spent with doing nothing but digging pictures from the pc at home. I seldom use this pc as most of the time is occupied by Abah or my adik2. Plus, I dont like the keyboard. Since I was left alone at home the whole weekend and not allowed to leave the house empty, anything home is all mine except for the astro coz it got kabooom the other week. Internet was the next best after TV.

I found some picture and the explanation follow afterwards.

Picture 1: Trial attempt to create camera trick like my niece being abducted by giant/alien inside the luggage bag but later discovered that my feet revealed there.

Picture 2: My youngest sis and me on the way to Kelantan last raya (we r not kelantanese tho)

Picture 3: Remember my previous post? This is another example for same. Farah Fauzana Fafau Hot.fm for Celcom ad.

Picture 4: My own version of Lilo and Stitch

Picture 5: Celcom ad: Undisputed

Picture 6: View outside our chalet, Pantai Sri Tujuh, Tumpat

Picture 7: Patung Buddha Duduk, Tumpat

Picture 8: Free water in Kelantan anyone? This pipe burst is the biggest I've ever saw on the road causing massive traffic jam as the water shoot up as high as coconut tree

Picture 9: Tumpat Railway Station

I dream, therefore I am

2009-01-16T15:48:00.004+08:00

This,

on the wall next to my bed...

This,

on the wall near the toilet

And this.

on my lovely purple bedsheet

Do I still need a reason for new bedsheet? Lesson, do not let ur niece take ur lipstick and going ART ATTACK in ur room.

Old Skool

2009-01-15T13:47:00.003+08:00

The other day, i was doing some spring-cleaning to clear some room space. If I dont need to place The New Handbag box in my room, I would have done something else than to dig the old stuffs stored inside the boxes beside my bed. Those boxes have been my side table for more than 5 years already.

Look what i've found in there, my school batches. I was in St George's Girl School from 93-94 and was in Sekolah Tun Fatimah in year 96-97. Where was I in 95? Haha... in Sekolah Menengah Perempuan Air Panas, KL. So.... I've only been in girls school.

Are u older and wiser?

2009-01-12T13:41:00.003+08:00

Its been awhile since I last blog. Too many things happen that I've decided not to write for a quite some time.

Im having some kind of urge within me that asking me, pestering myself to write this which I feel a good point to remind myself where Im standing now. I realize that it is now Jan again (duh..) and Im feeling the same for every Jan of every year. Funny this feeling go away by the time it reach December. But unfortunately, Jan and Dec is just a month away.

Im feeling older when:

I've started flossing my teeth coz somtin started stucking between my gums everytime I consume meat.
I've realized that my pimple breakout started to slow down. Older and dry-er.
I have loads of debts. Bills and account statement started to reach my mailbox.
My 20s almost overdue.
Have reportees and have to think n plan for thier career developement.
I have less friends that available whenever I needed one.
I'll tend to get easily tired after work and long day and end up no time to spend with others, except for myself only, which is either sleep or lying flat in front of the tube.

My bunches

2008-02-24T13:44:00.002+08:00

These are all mine for three consecutive years.

Year 2006

Year 2007

Year 2008

Beside these, I also being lavished with flowers like, monthly... =D

Welcome to the club

2008-02-03T18:08:00.001+08:00

Malaysian Customer Service SAKS II

2008-01-06T17:22:00.000+08:00

Aku pernah tulis pasal customer service sebelum ni.

Aku mmg sensitif dan emo kalau customer service teruk. Haritu aku dengan keadaan sakit tekak ya amat, singgah Guardian Pharmacy nak beli mineral water dan Strepsil. Masa nak bayar, beratur line panjang pulak. Kaunter ada 4 tp bukak 2 jer. Yang uniknye, tmpt bayar tu agak sempit so kene beratur satu line, siapa kat depan sekali, akan pegi pada cashier yg free.
Sampai turn aku depan sekali, aku perhati mamat dpn aku ni ala2 pondan la plak kan... lps bayar nak tunggu lama2 nak masukkan duit dlm wallet dulu la. So aku stay in line, sbb tmpt sempit.

Sekali tu, minah belakang aku terus pegi kat kaunter mamat lembap tu. Dan2 tu plak si lembap tu gerak. Mcm janji. Helo potong line. Yg geramnyer... cashier tu layan! Aku terus la sound. "beratur la!". Tak nampak ke aku yg beratur dpn dia dr td. Dan2 tu dia letak sume brg dia atas kaunter and buat derkkk. Hisshhhh.. Hangin satu badan. Dah le takde suara. Bila minah bongok tu blah, aku sound cashier tu plak. "lain kali kalau customer tak beratur ke potong line ke, jgn la layan!"

Help im thirsty

2008-01-05T19:29:00.000+08:00

Being me, dealing with Purified Water in my daily work, makes me dont wanna buy bottled process water or drinking water, unless it is mineral water. I prefer to bring my own drinking bottle where the water coming from my own kitchen. Coz if you buy those kind of water, its kinda buying water without anything inside. Which I can also get it free at GSK. And for water with the content is only H2O, its considered quite expensive. I only buy mineral water, coz I think I also buy H2O, potassium, calcium, sodium and magnesium which is good for the body. I always have this principle until I stepped in Singapore. Yup. Yet to post something on that too later.

Since then, I dont even care what type of bottled water, whether its drinking water, reverse osmosis water, processed, mineral bla bla the terms is. I just buy when i feel thirsty. Coz I realized now that Malaysian water is wayyy to cheap compared to Sanitized Singapore.

p/s: its been so long i didnt put any quote. So here goes.
~~The toast always fall buttered side down

Sandaran Hati

2007-11-20T11:28:00.000+08:00

yakinkah ku berdiri

di hempa tanpa tepi
bolehkah aku mendengarmu
terkubur dalam emosi
tanpa bisa bersembunyi
aku dan nafasku merindukanmu
terpuruk ku di sini
terangi dia yang sepi
dan ku tahu pasti kau menemani
dalam hidupku kesendirianku

teringat ku teringat
pada janjimu ku terikat
hanya sekejap ku berdiri
kulakukan sepenuh hati
peduli ku peduli
siang dan malam yang berganti
pedihku ini tak ada erti
jika kaulah sandartan hati
kaulah sandaran hati sandaran hati

inikah yang kau mahu
benarkah ini jalanmu
hanyalah engkau yang ku tuju
pegang erat tanganku
bimbing langkah kakiku
aku hilang arah tanpa hadirmu
dalam gelapnya malam hariku

Happy. I've Found My Long Lost Cream PANTS

2007-11-11T12:28:00.000+08:00

At certain point, as clumsy as I am, I tend to lose my stuff. I tend to accidently delete my files, working files so I have to beg for IT to retrieve it. I tend to forget my password, my parking tix, my Touch n Go card, my sharpest-ever scissors, but very seldom (never can I say..?) on my clothing. So when I lost my fav pants for the first time, I felt really frustrated coz I do really care of all my clothing.

I never let my sister do my laundry. I never hang dry my clothing if the weather outside not really bright or at least windy coz Im afraid that it will smell horrible. If that happen, I will wash it all over again. I never leave my clothes unfolded in laundry basket. I'll make sure it nicely kept in my wardrobe once it dry. Ok.. my point is, I know my clothes whereabout. So, when I lost my pants, I didnt really search for it coz I know it will come to me eventually (but I kept badgering my mum and sis to look for the pants. hehe). And you know what? I've found it last night, underneath my drawer. It fell there coz my drawer is too packed with pants that when I lifted it out, I would push my pants to the bottom of it that nobody wont reach that gloomy area.

Moral of the story, stop buying new clothes coz I already have an overflowing drawer and wardrobe. Or if i keep buying, I know where to search at if I lost one of them later. :)

I like pictures full of smile. So here some of it taken recetly.

...

2007-11-01T13:53:00.000+08:00

THE RESULT has out. I do summore reading. And found out that I might have an increased tendency toward anemia during pregnancy. Scared.

Ketiak kau busuk

2007-11-01T08:08:00.001+08:00

Semalam, balik dari kerja aku tgk Emak masak banyak sgt. Panggil jiran-jiran datang makan. Emak masak dari pkl 3 ptg sorang2. Adik mmg tak turun dari bilik dia sbb SPM dah sgt dekat. Jadi aku tinggal nak potong2 dan hidang2. Lepas isyak, jiran pn dtg. Ada satu jiran baru. Baru pindah selang 4 rumah dari rumah aku. Aku tak kenal.

Lepas basuh pinggan, aku cuba nak ke hall depan jumpa jiran2 semua. Tapi sampai dkt tmpt TV, aku terhidu bau busuk. Bau ketiak busuk yang datang dari hall depan lebih tepatnye. Kuat ya amat. KENAPE? Kenapa kau tak sedar ke ketiak kau busuk! Ya. datang dari jiran baru aku tu. Badan besar2 keluarga mereka. Emak kata dia datang satu keluarga dengan anak menantu cucu yg sebenarnya tak duduk sekali tapi mlm td dtg jenguk mak bapak tapi angkut satu famili. Malu.

Aku nampak jiran baru tu cuba bersmgt kejiranan. Dia isikan laksa dlm mangkuk untuk semua org. Tapi penuh sampai agak nak melimpah. Belum letak ulam n kuah lagi. Kalau habis takpe. Tapi semua masuk dalam tong sampah masa aku basuh pinggan. BODOH! Ni semua sebab ketiak kau busuk kau tau tak? Aku dah bengang.

Lepas tu pulak, rumah aku ni sempit, jadi aku dah tolak kerusi makan kat tepi dinding supaya jadi buffet style. Tapi kenapa kau tarik kerusi masuk meja jugak. Dah semua org ikut dan mkn tepi2 hidangan. Yang bengangnye lagi, sbb air liur kau merecik2 kat makanan lain atas meja. Kau makan laksa. Jangan tipu tak merecik. Kau tak pernah hadir openhouse ke? Mana etika?

Note: Change in font color to reflect anger.

Abah dan Emak

2007-10-29T15:10:00.000+08:00

Baru lepas hantar Abah masuk HUKM. Untuk program chemo ke-2. Kali ni, Abah tak perlu kene teman. Sebab dia dah dpt bangun, dapat berjalan. Cuma tak dapat angkat benda berat2. Harap Abah cekal dan kuat dan dapat jaga makan. Mungkin dia perlu program ke-2 sebab dia tak jaga makan. Nafsu untuk mkn daging (red meat) mmg susah nak tahan kalau waktu bulan puasa dan raya dgn byknya kenduri, rumah terbuka etc. Tapi Abah mmg suka sgt makan ikan kering/pekasam. Hmmm... kadang2 dia terlupa dia kene kawal mkn benda2 mcm ni. Moga umur Abah panjang supaya dapat temankan Mak sama2 in their grey n old time.

On second note, tadi kali ke-3 aku pergi in house clinic. Result thalassemia masih belum keluar. Doakan aku sihat.

Delectable

2007-10-18T16:23:00.000+08:00

Masa hari terakhir Ramadhan, aku sempat jalan2 di pasar ramadan Chabang Tiga, Kuala Terengganu. Ada satu jenis kuih tak pernah aku jumpa. Comel. Nampak macam tembikai. Tapi bukan. Ini puding. Rasa macam a bit spongy. Sedap kot.

Colors of my life

2007-10-11T15:59:00.000+08:00

Sejak akhir2 ni, aku asyik belanja je. Beli barang2 yang lagaknya macam orang kaya. Kuat betul pengaruh. Tapi ada suatu feeling yang tak dapat nak digambar kalau beli sesuatu yang mahal ni. Mungkin puas hati sebab ada kualiti. Seronok sebab dapat barang baru. Risau pn ada sebab takut hujung bulan terpaksa ikat perut or defisit sampai kene pinjam duit orang lain. Release sbb waktu2 tertekan, shopping adalah salah satu cara 'retail' theraphy. Gila pn ada sebab excited nak pakai barang2 baru tu...

Sekali sekala... kalau nak belagak macam org kaya untuk kepuasan diri sendiri.... itu tak salah. Atau duit gaji tu taknak simpan langsung hanguskan semua. Tapi kene make sure betul2 mampu. Jangan sampai kene utang credit card. Itu yang tak best.

I never meant to do you harm

2007-09-27T08:28:00.001+08:00

While driving this morning, i saw them again. This time, they walked a bit faster than before. She gripped her partner's hand, smiling. He was struggling and trying his best to be able to walk again. Maybe he is recovering from an illness, or was involved in an accident.

I was touched, for the second time. That scene was exactly same as what I always cogitate, on and on. If Himself will be ill till the day he dies, I wanna live with him, look after, take care and love him tender. I really do.

A Carrot, An Egg and A Cup of Coffee

2007-07-27T12:33:00.000+08:00

Found this useful. So I paste it here.

A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose. Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to boil. In the first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil without saying a word. In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she laddled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl.

Turning to her daughter, she asked, "Tell me what u see."

"Carrots, eggs, and coffee," she replied.

Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. The mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard boiled egg. Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled as she tasted its rich aroma.

The daughter then asked, "What does it mean, mother?"

Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity, boiling water. Each reacted differently. The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak. The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened. The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water.

"Which are you?" she asked her daughter. "When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?".

Think of this: Which am I? Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength? Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but
changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart? Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you. When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest, do you elevate yourself to another level? How do you handle
adversity? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human and enough hope to make you happy. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; They just make the most of everything that comes along their way. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can't go
forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

Manic-depressive disorder

2007-07-24T20:51:00.000+08:00

I read this and this.

I realized i got extreme irritability and I dont know how to cope with that.

I have thoughts in my mind that one day, I may end up in mental hospital.

What's wrong with asking? What's wrong with sharing with the one u trust the most? What's wrong with benchmarking ur self?

Its been 17 days from the day I started counting. OYea...I'm counting.

Its Pathetic

2007-07-08T20:37:00.000+08:00

love is when he'll be ur first morning call or sms.
love is when he'll be ur last call or sms.
love is giving up ur plans just to go & see him.
love is forcing ur tiredness to just get up & see him.
love is when he'll be the first to hear all the good news (and bad).
love is when he's willing to talk crap wit u.and willing to listen to ur crap.
love is when he's worried sick bout u when u do sumting stupid.and knowing u have a shoulder to cry on.
love is when u cannot get him out of ur mind.no matter how hard u try.
love is when he makes u laugh silly.or when he makes u sad, ur heart hurt & twitch soooo much u cannot sleep.and when u cry, ur crying love, when ur upset wit him, ur willing to forgive & forget .. as simple as dat.

Chemotheraphy

2007-04-27T20:20:00.001+08:00

My father had finished all 3 chemotheraphy and he will go for tissue transplant. Im worried coz I have zero knowledge on that.

During the very first chemo

On second chemo. Notice the hair loosing?

After 3rd chemo. Skinny Daddy

This is painful enough

2007-04-15T19:06:00.001+08:00

So many things happen to me recently. I consider those as things that people would not prefer to have.

A month after my father has been diagnosed of having cancer, an urge came to me asking me to have a full body blood test. Lo and behold, I got thalassemia trait in my blood and I am considered of having minor thalassemia which may also cause me to have bipolar disorder. Not just that, Dr said my immunity to Hepatitis B is ZERO. Why? I dont remember I skipped any vaccination on Hepatitis.

That just only on my blood. I got fibroadenoma too. Went for my operation and I realized that im a type of "tak tahan sakit". It was a minor surgery, but yet i felt like im dying. I hate when the Dr inject me with the anesthetic dose. It was too many and too hurry and too painful. I was thinking whether my veins are broken or not.

I hate the feeling when I realized from anesthesia, my throat was choking, hardly coughing, couldnt breathe, my body was shivering badly for about 15 minutes and my mind was thinking "am I dying?", trying to remember what had happened, where was I, what was the time, where's everybody that I know.

It was sad, coz I went there for surgery alone. I was afraid like hell and from there I knew, I am not strong. Apart from prayers of beloved ones that i brought together to the OT, nobody was physically available to support me. Not until 10 minutes after I arrived back to the Day Care Unit. He was there standing beside me, asking me to sleep and couldnt take his eyes off of me. Thank you.

Pain + Sad = Vulnerable. I was sick the whole day (and nite) after the surgery. Drowsy. Vomited few times.

Since my father got the cancer, commotions occurred few times between the family. I had the feeling that this happened coz The Man of The House is not able to wear The Pants anymore. Man and ego. Inseparable. He is weak but still wanted to do everything that he could no longer do which lead to lil' chaos among us. A very uptight situation for me which involved me into an accident on 6 Apr.

Though these happened, I learnt few more things that make me wiser inside. The only person that you can ask for help is YOUrself. When nobody around you can offer a helping hand, you have to be strong. When you got to do it, you got to do it!

I also learnt that being ignorance is the most stupid thing you can do when it comes to own self. Just by having the thoughts that your illnesses would go away automatically, wont help your heart stop pounding hardly whenever your wicked mind trying to figure out what has happened to yourself.

My God Damn Love

2007-03-25T11:54:00.002+08:00

My car's window screen been smacked off by some F***** just to get the few Ringgit kept inside dashboard compartment. He didnt steal my T&Go. He didnt steal my CDs and CD player. My Shoes. My Elle shades still safe and sound there. But funnily enough, he took my Service Booklet and Car Manual. And sadly, he also took away my pink shades from Mr Marks and my ever precious Birthday Card.

:(

The Pain is Killing Us All

2007-03-06T17:33:00.002+08:00

My father just been disgnosed by the Specialist Doctor as having Multiple Myeloma. Please dear all readers, pray for his wellness in health. We are in the state of despair and misery.

Iyer ke?

2007-02-17T22:16:00.000+08:00

http://www.myheritage.com

My Bad

2007-02-10T22:24:00.000+08:00

Recently, I've discovered something. Something that I should feel ashame of myself. I had a thought that one of my aunties from my mum's side was on extreme diet.

She has 5 sons+daughters at the age of 31. She become skinny and looks like very beauty concious after given birth to her fifth baby. We, The Families had same thought too. She must be on extreme diet that she looks too skinny. Dislikes cooking. Not becoming supermum anymore. Likes to enjoy and spent money on beauty. Abandon her children. Etc.

My bad. Actually, thats just rumours among The Families. She has been diagnosed by Doctor that she's having diabetes. She needs to apply extreme diet or else her diabetes might kill her. She needs to exercise too. Plus, her husband is a coach for MSN's cycler. Thats explained why she is now become pretty.

Kita Masih Waras

2006-12-20T12:12:00.001+08:00

Ini Asiah. Tapi orang kampung panggil dia Siyoh. Atau nama glamour dia, Siyoh Bobok. Satu Kuala Terengganu kenal dia. Masa kecik dulu, dia demam panas tapi tak bawak pergi hospital cepat2. Sekarang, dia jadi tak berapa betul. Cuba teka umur dia berapa. 52. Yer.. umur dia 52 tahun. Sekarang mungkin dah menapause. Dulu, masa aku kecik2, selalu kalau balik kampung, dapat dgr dia jerit nak keluar rumah. Itu mesti masa dia period. Mak dia akan kurung dia 4-5 hari. Bila dah bersih, dia akan lepas balik.

Siyoh selalu pusing keliling kampung. Kutip apa benda yg dia rasa berharga. Bwk satu plastik, untuk simpan apa2 yg dia kutip. Bila penat, dia akan lepak dekat tangga rumah org. Kalau org baik, dia akan bg Siyoh air minum, kuih atau roti untuk makan. Kalau budak jahat, dia suke ejek2 Siyoh sampai la Si Siyoh ni mencarut tak tentu hala. Kalau yg lebih jahat, diorang akan torture Siyoh, ketuk kepale dia dgn sudip. Semua ni Siyoh yg cerita sendiri masa dia melepak dkt tangga rumah Toki aku. Org lurus ni cakap dia, semuanya betul dan boleh percaya.

Kesian Siyoh. Nenek aku cakap, kalau ada orang bagi duit, anak sedare dia selalu kebas. Aku tak sure betul ke tidak. Tapi memang kesian. Budak2 kecik kat kampung tu semuanya takutkan Siyoh. Macamla nampak hantu. Budak besar pn ada yg tak reti bahasa. Kalau tak usik, Siyoh tak kacau kite. Cuma cakap baik-baik dgn dia. Dia dgr kata. Dan suka tanya soalan sama byk kali.

Dari kiri, aksi Siyoh bila disuruh buat muka sedih, muke gembira dan muke 'tidur'. She has feelings.

Bila tengok Siyoh, aku bersyukur masa aku demam panas kecik2 dulu, mak abah cepat2 bwk ke hospital. Kalau tidak, aku dah jadi terencat.

Hypocrite

2006-11-26T22:19:00.001+08:00

Just came back from a week trip to my mum's hometown. Toki was ill. A bunch of story to tell u. But i'll tell u later. Got a lot of errands to do. By then, enjoy the picture of Maya Karin for Celcom's commercial in Terengganu for billboard. She wears tudung. Not only Maya Karin for Celcom, but Haflin Saiful Azhar for Digi too. Things for us to ponder.

This was taken at Jalan Pejabat, Kuala Terengganu.

And this was taken at MRR2, KL.

We have been living in lies

2006-11-19T21:40:00.001+08:00

Memang agak melampau. Politik negara kite kotor. Pekung oleh orang-orang besar akan cepat-cepat ditutup dan diselewengkan cerita sebenar. Kalau jenayah itu dilakukan oleh orang bawahan, jangankan sebelah mata, sipi pun tak akan dipandang. Kita akan terima balasan setimpal kesalahan. Atau mungkin lebih dari itu. Padan muka kata mereka. Tapi kalau yg buat tu orang besar, orang kenamaan, yg betul-betul salah pn jadi innocent.

Kesian Razak Baginda. Kambing hitam untuk Dato Najib. Siapa Mr Razak? Razak Baginda atau Najib Tun Razak? UTK (Unit Tindakan Khas polis) takkan sewenang-wenang terima arahan untuk bunuh dan letupkan manusia jika arahan tu datang dari seorang penganalisis politik macam Razak Baginda, yang juga penasihat politik untuk Najib. Siapalah sangat dia tu nak bagi arahan bunuh pada UTK. Memang dah jadi standing operating procedure untuk UTK, mesti ikut arahan "org tertentu" without question.

Kenapa Pak Lah balik serta merta selepas sehari berurusan luar negara yang sepatutnya makan masa 3 hari, melainkan ada perkara mustahak melibatkan maruah atau nasib negara? Kenapa mengaku bunuh Aminah Abdullah? Kenapa mengaku bomkan Aminah Abdullah? Kenapa terlalu berani? Dapat rasuah ke? Atau terpaksa mengaku dan tambah lagi sorang kambing hitam? Semata-mata untuk kambus kesalahan orang atasan? Betul ke Najib? Atau Rosmah Mansur pn terlibat? Kenapa bodoh pegi bomkan? Bukan ke lebih senang humban dalam tong, simenkan dan buang dalam laut dalam? Mesti tak nampak bukti.

Dah banyak kes macam ni terjadi. Semua tutup kes. Buang kes. Tak jumpe pembunuh. Heran ye. Licik sangat pembunuh tu. Kes Norrita Shamsuddin. Kes Tengku Teh Susilawati. Kes lain-lain yang agak2 ade kaitan dgn org politik negara. Kotor. Berani buat, berani tanggung la. Kenape mesti ade kuli batak yang kena jilat najis kau orang pulak!

Don't Judge The Book By Its Cover Part 2

2006-11-17T21:29:00.001+08:00

Just finished my 4 1/2 days of training on Ergonomic. I wondered what are there behind the topic? Not the issue on training that I wanna talk about, not the Costa Rican trainer (she got fake boobs, very long leg and maggimee-like hair) but the people I met during the whole week.

I've always have this thought in my head that all Singaporeans are Kiasu. But that was wide of the mark since I met this lady Ms Tan, delegates from Jurong. She's not Kiasu. But very obliging and helpful.

Yours truly is standing the most right

I also have thoughts that I keep to myself that most Chinese are brainy. No. Not anymore. The Chinese that I met from Tianjin was so stupid that I think she got her phD from a 'chowkia' Uni. She thinks she is soooooo smart that she rejected opinions from everybody in the group and only wrote hers on the flip-chart. To add more, we barely understand her Chinese-English speaking. Demmit.

The group works require me to team up with delegates from Saudi Arabia. We are team mates the whole week. He was very funny and never fails to break the boredom of us in learning Ergonomic. The best part was his hilarity is original, way more high class compared to Zaidi's 'polluted mind'. At first, I thought his age is around 35-40. But I was wrong. Again. For the third time during the whole training. He is a father of 3 and has an extremely sexy wifey (he showed me the photos). And he has been existing in this world for 52 years, with a very jovial attitude. That explains.

~~Live life to the fullest

Still water runs deep

2006-11-12T01:27:00.000+08:00

Aku dah khatam baca buku cerita setebal 2 inci. Anybody Out There - Marian Keyes. Cerita tu sedap. Tapi sebab sibuk, lepas sebulan baru habis baca.

Pagi tadi bertengkar dengan mak. Ada salah paham. Mak bebel-bebel dan aku marah mak sebab banyak membebel. Mak merajuk dan kecik hati. Tak cakap dengan aku. Lepas tu, semua orang keluar rumah tinggal aku dengan mak je. Alih-alih mak tegur dan cakap macam biasa. Aku pn terus la cakap dengan mak macam biasa balik. Kene mintak maaf tu. Sekarang ni aku dengan mak je yang masih bersengkang mata belum tidur lagi sebab tunggu Apis belum balik-balik kerja. Mana pegi? Dahla tak angkat telefon.

Openhouse punya jemputan ada 3 hari ni. Malas pegi semua. Pegi satu je. Sebab boring duduk rumah sorang-sorang. Lagipun lapa jugak. Esok ada lagi 2. Harap dapat pegi dengan Himself.

~Just for you~

2006-11-09T13:05:00.000+08:00

And if I had a clue I'd know exactly what to do

If I were the wiser of the two

And if I saw it all so clear I'd write it all down and bend your ear

If I were the clearer of the two

c/o We can take a walk into the canyons of fifth avenue

Sing and dance just to name a few

All I do

All I do

And if I heard the angels sing I'd sing it back to you

And bring sound of heaven ringing just for you

And if I saw the sun fall down I'd pick it up and make a crown

One that was a perfect fit for you

c/o We can take a walk into the apple orchard by the school

We can make a little residue

We can find a place to stay

a secret little hideaway

Spend a little time inside of you

All I do...... All I do

All I do.......All I do

It Is Harder Than U Can Imagine

2006-10-28T13:50:00.001+08:00

What a pisser. I cant be with people and I dont want to be alone. I lost my place in the universe. I am more lost than I had known it was possible for any human being to be.

I fantasized a lot about us. What we wore, what time we usually spoke to each other, what song we used to sang when we picked up the phone when one of us called, our different smell that became identical whenever we sat side by side. When we had an argument/quarrel, we used to bump into each other, that shows we must not be apart. I went into nitty gritty details about us, which these things keep me company at night. We live in each other's pockets. We speak and emailing and texting each other thousand times a day.

What about him? How is he feeling right now? I hated that he has to go through whatever he is going through on his own. I knew that wherever he is now, he finds the separation terrible too. Where are you? Why dont u pick up any of my calls? Are u still in Germany diagnosing yourself? Why is no answer at all back to your hometown? Are your parents know anything about you but to certain circumstances, the news is not coming to me?

He sent me Danish Roses from 'Angeline' on Aidil Fitri eve... I felt so touched that I read the message on the card and straight to my room. Alone. Locked myself inside. Cried. Read the card again. Cried. Searched for anything that can bring me closer to him. Cried. Listened to FunTalk he left. Cried. Dialed his number for I-cant-remember-how-many times. Cried again. Till I realized that its nearly 8.o6 pm and I had not perform the Maghrib yet.

I cant wait for Monday.